ten weeks

I wish I could explain what ten weeks waiting for the dwp to reconsider their decision is like, properly. But I can only write down the facts as any emotion attached to this process has long since gone.
Give it another two weeks, next week, tomorrow. Every excuse to keep ringing back is given by the dwp operators, but none of them knows what it means in reality to tell someone late on Friday to try next week.
1st April they got my request to look at my claim again. They have admitted that the first medical was wrong and threatened me to undertake another, despite the medical evidence and other evidence I have submitted.
I have contacted the media 4 weeks ago and then felt forced to contact my mp 2 weeks ago. Im still waiting. With the excuse that it should be taking "up to 9 weeks". They don't know what to say when I say its been 9 weeks apart from try next week.
Ten weeks with no money, everything relied on my DLA before. Ten weeks of being impossible to budget because everything will be sorted soon, but nothing ever is. The extra costs don't go away because the benefits have gone. I tried living like that but it was impossible.
I cant cope with waiting anymore. I can't cope with the relentless fear of the telephone and letterbox. I cant cope with having to wait ten weeks to be once again told by the dwp that im not sick enough to qualify and have to start the wait over again for appeal.
This is me signing out. I have tried and failed to wait but can wait no more.